Wasted Times

 I am not an easy person. for myself. i blame myself a lot. i doubt myself a lot. even i play hard to my own self, not willing to forgive and forget all of the mistakes i did back then. i usually ask someone's coping mechanism every time i see someone in their low day. i feel like im in charge for make them to not blaming their own self. but it turns out i am not able to do that to myself. i find it so hard to move on and just living today's life. looking at for the dreams i wrote, i just can explain it all said that i need to focus more on the future. i just didn't realize how it could be easier if i only focus on the future and forgive myself. 

also it wasn't wrong at all when i said i am my own enemy. i hope i can just forgive my mistakes and just let it be, since i can't change the past. i hope everyone who reads this can relate and understand how human being just also made completely with flaws. forgive and foget. things aren't easy to do. so just keep living and move on to the future. every second we take will be easier when we only focus on the future. 화이팅 สู้ๆนะคะ 加油 ！！！ 

p.s. you can take my heart with you, it's FREE! >.<

When did i fall asleep?

when was the heaviest thing lodged in your heart?

when was it? where were you?

did it coop you up? was it heavy? in your mind?

i keep questioning those words in my mind. hoping that someday I'll stop questioning. it was all bad dreams, but when did i fall asleep?

𝓖𝓸𝓭'𝓼

And in the end, loneliness is nothing for me

even if i have to walk in this earth all alone, I'm fine

it's even better than i have to walk with someone i don't trust

so warm that the wind will give me the God's hug

and the same with the rain will be there for me too

I'm not frustrated, i just want to write what i want 

isn't it good? feeling ok watching people go 

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